I Feel Guilty For Not Wanting to Be A Copy Writer

I recently went on a cruise and had a lot of time to read. I brought along a copy of the book called, "The Well Fed Writer" written by a guy who wanted to work from home, be his own boss, and thought he wrote pretty well. The statistics in this book of how well copywriters can do amazed me. He says copywriters can charge $50 to $85 per hour and that most companies won't blink an eye. They write articles for newsletters and information for brochures, ad campaigns, etc.Technical copywriters earn less, but even still they are at $35 to $65 an hour. As a writer, can you imagine earning that much money? $85 per hour to do something you love? I was amazed. But then I really started to think about it and wondered if I could actually do that. Somehow, being a copywriter seems like selling my dreams short, Yes, while it would provide a very nice living, there probably wouldn't be time to write on the side for magazines or to write that book I want to someday have published. And then I thought about how I don't enjoy deadlines such as when I write for Textbroker. And when I write for the one agency I do write for, I hate the deadlines there as well. So to imagine a life full of writing determined by deadlines sounds awful and stressful to me. I feel guilty because right now, as a substitute teacher that writes online on the side, I don't make nearly the money I would like to make, or should be earning as a person with a Master's degree. In our marriage, my husband ends up with the bulk of the responsibility for paying the bills.The author is pretty bleak when he talks about how unrealistic it is to try to make a living as a writer of books and magazine articles and that people that do that are pretty much starving artists. Yikes...sounds like me although thanks to my husband, I am not starving. I suppose I could approach other non-profit agencies and tell them about my background in human services and promote myself as a copywriter since I know I could get a letter of recommendation from the director of the agency I currently do work for. But I don't want to. I want to hold out for writing my own articles at my own pace and also write that book someday. I'm just broke and feeling bad about it, and feeling guilty that I can't help out more financially at home. Any thoughts?

Writing Earnings from April, 2014

Ugh...I am almost embarrassed to tell you what I made online writing during April. I totaled it all up and unfortunately it's not very much. I earned only less than $1.00 on Google Adsense...why, I have no idea. I earned about $12.50 on Hub Pages and approximately $27.00 on Bubblews for a whopping total of $39.91 from writing online. Yikes...good thing I am not putting all my eggs in the online writing basket. I did also do some interviewing and writing articles for a newsletter for a non-profit agency, and earned $135 there, and got a raise actually because I started off dirt cheap with them and they told me to raise my price per hour. Pretty good eh? They must like my work enough to tell me to charge them more money.So all told, my writing earnings for April were: $174.91.That's not bad for part time work, but if I was trying to write full time, I would be pretty poor. I must add here that April was a slow month for me earnings wise probably because my husband and I spent about 2 full weeks preparing our house to put on the market, and I was working full time subbing for 3 of the weeks in April. I certainly hope May has better results at least online because I don't have the outside work from the non-profit agency this month so things will be pretty bleak if they online work doesn't pick up. I read on another blog that someone took a bunch of his articles on Hub Pages and turned them into an e-book on Kindle, and was able to do that for free. I read this in a post from a year ago. I wonder how he made out? Has anyone else done this or know of anyone who has? I have had an idea for an e-book for awhile and this may work for me.